Doomed to wander endlessly
Searching for a simple key
Happiness you will not find
At the bottom of the line
It's the oldest lie they tell
That you "grow" as your grow old
Not without a certain stench
Of ignorance and self neglect
This will
Kill you
You will
Suffer
You can't
See straight
Now it's
Too late
Isn't anybody gonna show up?
How come it won't stop hurting?
Please
Let me know none of this is really real
Repeat, repeat and endless hole
Struggling to hold it all
Like so many times before
Wings were clipped before you could soar
Gifted one like all the rest
Too gifted to just flea the nest
Left with nothing but to rot
Searching for what time forgot
I've been getting better
You've been growing less clever
I've aged ten years in 2 weeks
A wave of indifference takes me
And rooted firmly on the ground
My ambitions just weigh me down
It's called a marvel on the scene
To see such new technology
But we can't seem to look away
To get perspective on the modern age
You're all worn down and sleepy
It's time to take it easy
I am not your savior
Nor am i your solution
To the problems that lay deep inside of you
And i promise that's the only promise i intend to keep
One alone a Concept of time
Purely bittersweet is mine
I have looked for it
Only get a blank stare back
Emotionless
There's a disconnect
Something I can't correct
Mirrors
And pictures
Suffocating in something i did
(Did not mean to dwell)
When i look into the mirror
Unfamiliar faces clearer
My personal sense of self
Was it crafted by me or someone else?
Explain the lack of empathy
Feelings of myself towards me
Feeling fake in my own skin
Is this the sort of state that i live in?
Hair is bleeding on the floor
Am i really myself?
Am i living a lie?
Glue and paint stuck on my face
Clogging pores and picking skin
Blemishes form
Sense of self lost within
Lead like sheep
Lambs to the slaughter
Are we so trapped inside?
We don't see the irony
Of what we've left behind
Weighed
Down
By
Our
Sins
Broken down
Sin in our skin
Never knowing where to turn
Or step outside and watch it burn?
I won't let it hold me
I
Can't
Breathe
You
Can't
See
Did you hear the news today?
Concerning letters of dismay
The queen has sentenced us to shame
It's all elaborately contained
Stupid phrases smartly stated
Oh
Come in close
Feel
It the most
Stinging
In my eyes
Living
In disguise
They told me
My day would come
Where i could fly
Into the sun
They told me
The sun would warm
and not burn
Never burn
Who the fuck told you you could just
Lie
Lie
Lie
Waking
To another day
Knowing that you will never pay
For your
Mistreatment of us
Your Subjects
your suspects
All hail the queen bee
Look at me the picture of liberation
Poster child for bolshevik revelation
I'm the avant garde so all you'll have is just pure speculation
My thoughts are my own i just share them with
Several others
My own i just share them with
Several killers
My own and everybody wishes they could be me
Blind
Men
All
Bluff
As the time shifts it creeps undetected no one notices
His thoughts remain in shadows
Holding tight to whatever they can
His ideas remain unquestioned
By idealists and flashes in the pan
Some might say that it's misery that turns us this way
Turns good me cruel and steers us into
Bad ideas that seem so reasonable
When nothing else is sensible
So just sign right here
On the dotted line for your victory
The contract of an unbeknownst hypocrisy
Still tightly wound just waiting for someone to set it free
Daddy's guns and mommy's drugs
Taking shots and fruitless hugs
Always moving job to job
It's the Alt. Route
Daddy's guns and mommy's drugs
Taking shots and fruitless hugs
Always moving job to job
It's the Alt. Route
Craving your attention
Spitting all intention
But i am no Different
I just choose a different
Outlet to the mess and noise
But i still misuse my voice
Sorry my friends
Through all the screams
We just wish to be seen
about
Live shit from around NH in Summer '22.
Shows are:
Jewel Nightclub, Manchester NH 6/23/22
The Loading Dock. Littleton NH 7/1/22
*Bonus Track*
Rob's House, Litchfield NH 9/3/22
credits
released September 30, 2022
Brandon Curcio - Recording and mixing for Jewel show
Jared Hazelton - Recording and mixing for Loading Dock show
STBL is:
Zoe - Guitar
James - Guitar
Martin - Vocals
Danny - Drums
Charlie - Bass